Time to type out an update on how things are going here. On 1/28/03, I went over to my g/f house and we talked about everything that lead to the breakup. I poured out my heart to her and told her I let too much of everything else in life take importance and that I still loved her and wanted to prove to her that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. She told me she still had feelings for me and would give me the next two months to get things in order in my life. She also told me that she had a lot of expectations if we were to get back together. I told her I would do everything in my power to be ready to pursue her and fight for the woman I love and to show her that I was able to shake off of all of the bad shit I had let cloud my head. So far, it’s been 2 weeks and I’ve got a part time job selling Dish Network and DirecTV systems. And I can tell you the job is helping a LOT. It keeps me busy at night, and I’m able to break out of my self-inflicted shell I’ve put myself in and really realized that the power within me was always there. I just covered it up with too much of life’s problems. So things are heading in the right direction and in 6 more weeks, I hope to keep posting my results here. And of course, I’ll talk about the “talk” my g/f and I will have at the end of March. I’m really looking forward to doing everything in my power and being ready in every aspect – to fight for the woman I love and want to be with. The hope is what drives me.